Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Just a sudden post out of nowhere, maybe I'm just emo-ing out of nowhere, it's really sadden-ing to see that, no matter how hard I tried, some things aren't never going to change. Especially the word friendships. With this, I wanted to ask everyone a question, is friend forever a phrase to use? Does friendship last forever? And last but not least, what is a frend and a close friend to you?
Quite a lot of people surrounding me are sad? Like Sean, although he always say about forgetting her and concentrating on basketball, but whoever is his friend is able to understand that he is still sad, if his not, he wouldn't be putting [I will try to forget her in every post.] His just not courageous enough to own up to many people, maybe because he doesn't want people to sympathize with him? Or maybe he just hope with the lesser complaing, he could forget her much more easier. But to what I know and what I had gone through, it's useless to forget her if you fall too deep because this kind of things can't be explain, that's why some people say that it is a blessing to lost one's memory and start again a new life, while some people say that holding on to a memory is a blessing because it's the happiness and sorrowness and everything else of feeling that makes you grow up. Also, to Sean, playing basketball aren't the only way to grow up, watching and learning them is another way. 加油吧，老弟
Eunice also, I just read her post and seeing that she's sad because of her size, she know that a lot of guys prefer to have a skinny or at least a girlfriend with a decent look plus an okay size, I persoanlly think that she is okay with her look, I guess she think so too, it's just that she's worry about her size because she know she is plump. I wouldn't use the word fat because it's should be use on people like me. Previously she tried losing her weight because she wanted to show to some others that with determination, she could slim down, now once again shes doing it but now her mind is set to others. It's just funny on how she can do it with this kind of thinking, but I wish her luck, and Eunice, if you were to see post, like what Sean had say in your blog, if the person likes or loves you, he wouldn't care much about your body but rather your heart, if you can give the impression that you are as good as those pretty women down the streets through your effort and love and everything, it would simply push them down because you are someone whom they can't beat with action. Although what I say here might be a little off from the real world, because the world is just so realistic, but I hope you will have more confidence in yourself. You are not like me. :D
This is the two whom I know are sad because of one thing or another, but does anyone know I'm sad once again? It's hard to be contented with only a few bit. I know I always say asking for no returns after putting in so much effort, but it aren't coming that way, I don't want something more back, but I want equipvelent stuff back, I know it's impossible, especailly on the word "Friendship." Like my msn nick is trying to say, no matter how hard I try, how much effort I put in, some things are just never going to change. To those younger then me, am I hard to mix around with? Or am I just too sucks to be your friend, I mean, close frends. Chatting with me is like so hard, playing with me is also like so hard, I just can't understand why this happen. I felt like my life is going back to what it is a year or two ago, where I tried mixing around with a group of friends, they are already closed to themselves, and I joined in, and I find that they are close to me too, it's just that after one stupid inccident I created, I found that our friendship together is actually so weak, so what's the point of telling me Friends Forever when you are going to leave me so soon. Now it's a bit better in the sense only 6months has pass, what about another 6months? Will it be totally the same as how it is a year ago? Where 1 year is the deadline to everything frends in there? I really hope it's not. Are you guys taking me for granted? Or it's just that we are not close enough for you guys to even care about me. Will someone ask about me if I'm suddenly gone one day? Maybe you could answer yes when I'm asking it, but might not be doing it during that day. Do I really means nothing? Or am I just forcing to much stuff. To answer people's question about why I don't go and find a girlfriend at this age is because, I know I wouldn't give up my time on friends for girlfriends, so I rather stay single and not hurt any girls. Sigh, life is once again meaningless. I told Yoke last time, that if they were to really leave me one day, I wouldn't try something like this again, but now, I'm still here, trying to get close to another group of friends, which I know is impossible, because their heartx doesn't had a place for me. I though being god-brother would get some closer, but I smell that it's getting further and further, I'm still just one dumb man trying to graps something that is impossible. Alwyn is only a person there, but not in their heart.
I'm going for my results this coming Friday, to see if my leg is fine or not, I hope that it's fine, but it just means going to the hard army, I also hope it's not find so that I could get to the lazy army, in a dilemile, and I asked people to accompany me there, but I don't think how I ask will affect them, some will just say, don't want, rather play basketball, while some would just say see first and totally forget about it. I don't think anyone would read it because this is something for none to read, I mean, you read, you will get what I feel, you don't read, doesn't really makes a change to me because like I say, some things will never going to change, not especially, but to most extend, to the word [Friends.] If you had successfully reach this sentence, it shows that you had ended a long speech by Mr. Peh
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