HAiz .. oki .. i noe its bad for mi to start a post wif tat word + sri that my blog is pure words for now .. budden i realli dun hav de mood to lyke .. making it faciful .. and if u all feel that my depression or aniting is all fake .. as u all lyke ba .. regardless how carefree a person i am .. i believe i will hav problem that could really takes mi down .. and realli .. a big thxs to everyone whom tried making my days .. i realli hope to pick up from tis mood asap .. the freaking black-hole is sucking mi in once again .. haiz .. i may not be a lousy person .. but i do things without caring abt other pplz state .. so in another word .. treat mi as a sucker ba .. sri if u all dun lyke to see tis post .. budden i tink i can vent my anger on my blog ba .. =x .. duno wad u all wan to tink .. say i fake than i fake lar ..
well .. get back to normal post liao ba .. lyke i say .. hope to see him on saturday wad .. then realli got the chance to see him on sat .. budden .. everything was a big downpour for mi after seeing him thr .. cuz of something realli wrong happening .. and beside those things tat nid to be say .. he didnt realli chat wif mi ba i suppose .. was damn emo .. =x .. well .. go biking .. after tat went over to lan shop and pak lan lor .. for 2hr+ i tink .. after tat went home le .. aiya .. nth much for mi .. dun feel lyke saying aniting .. let mi forget abt de day ba ..
todea leh .. sunday mah .. went and find them .. after tat contact wif siong and poh lor .. then realli bored mah .. so went to lan again .. tis time round onli 1hr or so lor .. well .. nvm .. i tot everything was fine .. budden guess its not yet .. and wadever i can do i do liao .. juz hope he can realli forget abt everyting and juz .. u noe .. =x right .. get down to buisness .. i cried again todea .. budden secretly .. hehe ..
oki .. back to my own things .. umm .. i realli dunoe wad can i do leh .. and i realli hate going back to the freaking black hole lor .. its something that i dun wan to keep going back and back and back and BACK again lor .. i noe .. u all may tink .. wah kao .. small problem oso go back .. or like so problematic for wad .. emo-world is for pplz hu realli got problem than go in de mah .. budden that is if u noe mi well enuff ba .. like i say .. i may be a happi-go-lucky person .. budden i could at least show out my 'depression' if needed ba .. hope is the onli tink i can tink of when problem occurs .. and time is the onli thing to heal it ? I DUNOE ABT IT ! cant i settle it wif myself ? cant i try to overcome it ? y izzit tat everytime a problem confirm started out wif mi .. yet i always make myself so xin gu .. am i stupid or wad .. y leh .. haiz .. wad the hell .. how do i like .. dun hav so mani problem .. wad de hell is my character man .. can someone juz tell mi tat .. i tink i dun even understand myself at all .. and yet always telling ppl "dao li" .. haha .. lame lor Alwyn .. when u dunoe urself .. dun try to noe others 1st .. tis time round i dunoe how long it will take to settle everything .. i will try my best to .. do wadever i can .. oso hope tat he could try and accept mi as a buddy again .. lyke last time .. time time time .. time dun wait and yet i nid to wait for time . haiz .. realli fustrated .. end it here 1st .. type again .. im moodless to do aniting .. ahahax ..
Things are getting better i think and i hope .. so i wont put that liao
